well... i guess the last post i made didnt exactly work for whatever reason... i posted via text message....

Don't remember what i said...

so...

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I scheduled for classes today.. I am taking anthropology, ethics, and comparative religion. 15 credit hours. And i will do anything and everything it takes to make it through this quarter. I'll quit my job if i have to.

In other news i applied to twin valley behavioral center, and im going to apply to childrens hospital and netcare either today or tomorrow... also did some touching up to my resume. shits gonna be sweet. I need a new job like palin needs a new career.

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black eyes and life decisions

I think i found a boxing gym. Its expensive though... But im really excited. The way it works you have to sign up for at least 3 or 4 one on one sparring sessions with one of their trainers, and then you can show up to open sparring. these one on one training sessions are 40 bucks for an hour. yes... an hour. Or you can go with someone else and split the price to 20 a piece. Or... you can buy then in bulk. i forget that price. But then you can jut show up to the open sparring at 20 bucks a week. Its gonna kill my wallet. but i think it will be worth it in the long run. Ill be able to get into better shape, and have a good time while doing it. Plus I've always thought that i looked good with a black eye and a fat lip. Plus.... they compete. So all of my friends, such as you reading this, can come watch me get that black eye, and that fat lip. Who doesn't want to see me get knocked out?

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I've been trying to figure out what i want to do with the rest of my life... again.... I've been thinking about 3 (plus) options...
1. firefighting in Iraq. It might be tough to do... but its 100k a year. It gets me outta the us. It gets me fire experience. It stalls my life for at least 1 year.
2. trying to join the military again. Why? cause i don't know what else to do, I don't want to work a medcorp he rest of my life. I'll always be in shape.
3. finishing my philosophy degree, then going to mount carmel's accelerated nursing program. I've been thinking about going to OSU again next quarter... just applying to newark campus.
(plus). applying to various nursing schools and finding out that I can't get in because i slacked too much at cscc.

I really need to do something with my life. Im tired of being nothing. I want to be somebody. I want to do something.

this week has been a crazy week at work. I worked monday 7-7, tuesday on call 7-7, got called in 1-730, wednesday 7-7, thursday 8-8, friday 8-6, saturday 7-7

im really excited about tomorrow, friday's, shift. Im "float" which typically means that you work for the officer on duty so that they can get paperwork done. Well... there is no lt on duty tomorrow, and either way it would have to be a medic that take their place. I then saw on the schedule that the officer from the day previous, today, is off when i get on. so he cant try and send me home or what not. then i also saw... the captain and director are working a special event and will be gone an hour before i get in.... those are the only two people with authority over me that are at station other than a lt... so what does this mean? im being paid to sleep and watch tv tomorrow. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA take that shitty medcorp.

another day another dollar

Im sitting at work, no runs yet this morning. But this is going to be a very very busy week. I work12 hour days 5 days this week, and am on call for another 24.... As much as i complain about my job, i really do enjoy it. I just wish it was a more serious place to work. Im tired of my boss, if thats what you want to call him. Im still working on getting my 6 month review, which has easily turned into a 10 month review... Which is bullshit... but thats another story.

Things are good... i guess.... Im finally starting to hang out with a bunch of old friends that i haven't hung out with in a while, and also making some new ones. Girl situation is... well... it is.

Ive been playing a lot of soccer lately, its a blast. I don't remember why i ever stopped playing, because.. well, i haven't had this much fun in a long time. The only problem with it is, i feel like an old man. Every time we have practice i get all achey, and sore. Not a good sore, like i just worked out sore, but a sore like i just pulled something. For example yesterday i pulled my right quad at our game. So far we are 0-1-2... 2 ties? yes. Yesterday we should have destroyed. But... we didnt. we were a person short the entire game, and still managed to be ahead most of the game. I like how all of the games are real close. It makes me want to get competitive. Which for the most part im not.

Ive been looking for boxing gyms. I really really really want to fight. Maybe it will help me get rid of some of this built up aggression. I can only hope. Just gotta find something that i can fit in my schedule that isnt gonna cost me an arm and a leg.

well.... i suppose i should try and get some sleep. 12 hour shifts are pretty exhausting. especially when you are working 5 in 6 days.

Pauls to do list
lose weight
start boxing
lose weight
play soccer year round
start guitar lessons
lose weight
gain confidence
feel like myself again
lose weight